I had an aha moment the other day; it was one met with a little bit of surprise, a little bit of sadness, and a little bit of disappointment. I was reviewing my Leonie Dawson life workbook for 2017. In it, she has a page where you write three permission slips to yourself. I had written the following permission slips for myself in early January 2017:
- take time off to refuel and recharge
- practice what I preach
- take exquisite care of me – keep my cup overflowing so I can be of more service to the world
As I read those, my inner goddess pinged, “Yes! That!” And yet … The surprise came from the fact that I had predicted so well exactly what I needed in 2017. The sadness came from the fact that I didn’t take my own advice. The disappointment was a fleeting thought that maybe I could’ve prevented a lot of the pain and health issues I went through, especially my latest go round with adrenal fatigue, if I had only taken my own advice – you know, practiced what I preached.
Yet, beating myself up about it doesn’t do any good (and that’s not practicing what I preach anyway). But, on my recent trip to Costa Rica, I got an inkling of what I need to do next to get back on track.
It came from a surprising place: baby sea turtles. The third day of our trip, I came down with a head cold. As a result, we decided to cancel our plans on the fourth day so that I could rest and heal. I was sitting on the deck watching the ocean when one of the hotel staff yelled, “Baby sea turtles!” No matter how sick you feel, of course, you have to get up for that!
As it turned out, our hotel was located next to a sea turtle wildlife conservation program and that day about a dozen baby sea turtles had hatched. It was getting near the end of the day and it was time to release them. We trekked down with the conservation staff and watched a miracle unfold. One by one, these little sea turtles took off toward the ocean. For some it was full-out sprint and straight shot to the water. For others, it was a lot of turning the wrong direction, going sideways, or backtracking. Yet, we couldn’t interfere – they had to find their own way (one of the conservation experts called it activating their GPS) because in 15-20 years, the females need to know where to return to lay their eggs.
“No matter where you are on the path, you are never lost. Every step forward is a step in the right direction. There is no finish line.” – Casey Daly
While I might not be lost, I am feeling a deep calling to take some time for me to refuel, recharge, and figure out what my next steps are going to be. It’s time for me to take a pause, a sabbatical if you will, from my business. I need to stop long enough to listen to the wisdom of my own voice.
“In silence, I hear.
In stillness, I feel.
In nothingness, I create.
In emptying, I receive.” ~ Syma Kharal
So I’m going to do just that. Pause. Listen. Reconnect in with my own inner GPS. Receive.
What are you feeling called to do as we begin this New Year?