With three planets in retrograde and the recent New Moon in Gemini, many of my clients are struggling; feeling lost as we wait for this interesting double Full Moon in Sagittarius cycle to complete at the end of June.
I've had several client calls over the past week as well as conversations with women in my Sacred Circle and I keep getting the same message. I think it was perhaps summed up best by one of my private clients who told me this:
I find myself in that place: the place where I want to self-sabotage, to make things harder than they should be. The depression sets in, deeper and deeper. I cry myself to sleep at night, adrift on my sea of sadness. I allow the waves of angst and despair to wash over me. I feel overwhelmed, too numb to act, unsure of what to do. If only someone would save me from myself.
I'm not sure if Danielle Laporte has ever suffered from depression, but this quote of hers struck me as apropos to the experience so many are feeling right now:
I am a planet of love with a hair trigger drawbridge that can close without much warning. – Danielle LaPorte
I think sometimes those who suffer from depression feel that way. They are a hair trigger away from happiness, from sadness, from despair, from putting another brick into that wall around their heart that they think will protect them. I know because I've been there.
So what do you do when you're in that place? That place where it seems nothing is going right, nothing is going your way, and you're feeling overwhelmed? I'm going to tell you what I’ve been telling my clients. It’s the same thing I do when I’m in a funk.
Ask yourself every morning when you wake up: On a scale of 0 to 100, where is my energy level/my vibration right now? If it's 75 or higher, great – keep doing what you're doing. But if it's below 75, especially if it's below 50, you better figure out what you need to do to raise your vibration and that needs to be your number one priority right now.
I know, I know. You're telling yourself, “I'm too busy to do that. I'm too busy to take care myself. I'm too busy to crawl my way out of the hole of despair I've dug myself into.”
Let's get real here: how long do you want to suffer? I'm not trying to chastise you or blame or shame you. Like I said I've been through this myself. So I tell you this with a bit of tough love. Here's what I know: Depression is not going to encourage you to crawl out of that hole yourself. You have to make a conscious decision, take action to raise your energy level/ your vibration before you can even contemplate getting out of the hole.
So do yourself a favor and ask the question: Where's my energy level/ my vibration right now? It's not 75 or higher, ask the follow-up question: “What do I need to do to raise my vibration?” Allow whatever's going to bubble up to bubble up. You may be surprised; it may not be a big thing. Maybe you just need a hug or to stay in bed for five minutes longer. Maybe you need to get out your watercolors and just draw what you're feeling. Whatever it is, I encourage you to make sure it gets done today, sooner rather than later. And when you finish, ask yourself again: Where is my vibration? If it's not 75 or higher, ask again: What do I need to do to raise my vibration?
I get that you may not have an entire day to engage in this exercise, but I promise that if you do it on a consistent basis, your numbers will steadily climb. Once you get to 75 or higher consistently, then you'll be more able to see where you are and what you need to do. You'll have the clarity and peace of mind to come not from a place of self-sabotage, but of love for yourself, for others, for the world around you.