As I get summers off from teaching, Summer is usually the time I ramp up my online business. I go into “get things done” mode. I host telesummits, create new products and services, and revise my business plan for the remainder of the year.
But after a long and stressful Spring and Summer semester, I declared June my month of Self-Care. I worked 4-hour days, rediscovered painting in the Woman Unleashed Online Retreat, and spent quite a bit of time journaling. I thought that by the end of June, I would come out of my slump and know which direction I wanted to take with my online business.
Yet, when I checked in with myself during my New Moon meditation, I got the following message:
“You need to keep coming back to you. You need this Sacred retreat time to ground and center. Take as long as you need. There is no rush. Allow this unfolding to happen on its own time.”
Huh. Guess I won’t be charging ahead with my business plan this month after all.
As I’ve been participating in Woman Unleashed, I’ve learned a lot about myself. I learned that, to some extent, I’m still a people pleaser. I’ve been listening to the advice of others rather than my own intuition. I’ve been following someone else’s definition of success rather than focusing on what makes me happy. I’ve been holding myself back for fear of stepping on someone's toes or offending someone. It’s like I’ve been waiting for someone to give me permission to be myself. But none of that is honoring me. So I started asking myself some tough questions:
- What do I consider to be my greatest strengths? Weaknesses?
- How have I been hiding/not be-ing true to me?
- Who do I think I need permission from and why?
- What is my Soul calling me to do? What is my Mission?
- What am I afraid will happen if I answer my Soul’s Calling? If I walk firmly forward in my Mission?
I don’t know that I have all of the answers to these questions yet. It is, after all, a process, an unfolding. What I know is this: my Soul is calling for me to continue my retreat. To create sacred space and nourish myself. As I allow this unfolding to occur, the next steps – for my business and my life – will appear.
June was my month of self-care. July is about self-trust and listening to my intuition. It’s about re-birthing me. The funny thing is that I do I reading for the entire year every January. I write down the cards I’ve pulled – one for my business and one for myself – for each month and then refer to them again at the beginning of that particular month.
After I completed my New Moon meditation and received the message that I need to stay in retreat mode, I referred back to the reading I had done for July at the beginning of the year. I had pulled Nemetona from Doreen Virtue’s deck for my business and Transcend from Ariel Spilsbury’s 13 Moons Oracle Cards for myself. Huh. Quite prophetic, isn’t it? It’s funny how that works out. Over 6 months since I did the reading or even thought about it, and yet, my Soul knew even then that I would need this Sacred healing time to recover, replenish, and fill my cup.
The inner woman is the source of healing. The inner woman is the source of silence. The inner woman is the source of love. The inner woman is the source of belongingness with life. Embracing the inner woman is to discover our inner roots and wings.” Swami Dhyan Giten
It’s time to create Sacred Space to nourish my Soul.