“The Goddess doesn’t enter us from outside; she emerges from deep within. She is not held back by what happened in the past. She is conceived in consciousness, born in love, and nurtured by higher thinking. She is integrity and value, created and sustained by the hard work of personal growth and the discipline of a life lived actively in hope.” — Marianne Williamson
In April of 2013, during a guided meditation, I experienced something that would change the course of my life. You see, I had been working for 9 months on a book about the Psychology of Eating, my research specialty. Yet, I had hit writer’s block. Big time. I hadn’t made any progress on my book in 3 months.
At the advice of my friend and mentor, Linda Joy, I contacted her book coach – Lisa Tener. Lisa offered to lead me through a guided meditation to meet my writing muse so I could ask her why I had writer’s block. Desperate, I jumped at the chance.
The problem came when I actually met my writing muse, what I now refer to as my inner goddess. She told me that I had writer’s block because I was writing the wrong book for the wrong people. That I was supposed to be writing a book about awakening your inner goddess that, as I wrote, would heal me, and as other women read the book, would help them heal.
I panicked. I fought her. I tried to ignore her. Who did she think she was telling me I was writing the wrong book? It was based on my life’s work, which at that point was over 15 years of research. How could it be the wrong book? And I knew nothing about the Goddess. Sure, I loved learning about the Greek and Roman myths during my five years of taking Latin, but other than that, I didn’t even know what an Inner Goddess was, let alone that I had one.
But after another week of getting nowhere on my book on the Psychology of Eating, I sat down and did the meditation again, then went to my computer and starting writing. The words flowed out of me like water. All I had to do was: 1) get out of my own way, and 2) be open to receiving the lessons I needed to learn.
Fast forward two and a half years…
In some ways, on the surface, my life doesn’t look all that different than it did when I first met my Inner Goddess in April of 2103. I still am a Professor, I still research body image and eating disorders, I still teach classes on the Psychology of Eating and blog about the topic for Psychology Today. Yet, I am a different woman. I am stronger, more confident, more sure of myself, more courageous than I ever thought possible. I am authentically me. I no longer hide in shadows for fear of what others might think. I wear my purple streaked flowing mermaid hair with pride. I speak my truth and walk in my power. I belly dance half naked in public because I love it and it allows me to express my creativity and my connection to the Divine Feminine. I am no longer afraid.
You see, that day in April of 2013 I made a decision, a decision to stop living a lie, to stop hiding my truth – the truth of who I was.
Who is this Inner Goddess?
She is you, but she is you at the core of who you are. She is all of your potential. She is the woman you were meant to be. She cares little for what other people think. She listens to the music of her soul and she dances to it. She has walked through fire and emerged, if not unscathed, truly victorious. She has cried, had her heart broken, and known the depths of loss and pain. But instead of allowing herself to be overcome by them, she has used these challenges to grow, to strengthen her resolve, her belief in herself.
She is your intuition, your inner knowing, your connection to and embodiment of the Divine Feminine. She is the woman you were before society got ahold of you and turned you into who you are now.
She is your beauty. She is your light. She is your truth.
“Maybe the journey isn't so much about becoming anything. Maybe it's unbecoming everything that isn't you so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.” – Unknown
Are you ready to unbecome who you are not so you can be who you were meant to be?
Want to learn more? I invite you to join me for this month’s complimentary call and powerful ceremony: Awaken the Goddess Within.